I can't even bring myself to pick up my tablet pen, or a pencil for that matter. Why?

1. My dad. He believes if I draw as a career, I won't make a living.
2. My boyfriend. "You don't SEEM like the 'artsy' type. Just go to [nerd highschool]. All the kids who go to [art highschool] have no future. They'll be selling their stuff for five bucks on the street."
3. No inspiration. I can't think of ANYTHING.
4. Schoolwork. It has me too busy so I can't finish any of my sketches.
5. My art itself. I'm trying to improve. I see no changes.

All the negative energy, all the put-downs, it has me insane. Whenever I look through my sketchbook, it kills me. Wasted potential, if it even IS considered potential. I wanted to go to an art school, but I don't even have the CHANCE to. NO ONE SUPPORTS ME.

I've pretty much lost interest in drawing now.

school starts tomorrow for me.
I'm not even prepared. OTL
So...I have to pack my bag, get extra supplies, work @ piano, then do my paper route. ):
busy busy busy.
But I got a feeling that tonight's gonna be a good good night. <3

AND I WILL NOT GIVE UP UNTIL I FINISH. D: But before I talk about that, let's talk about my offline life for a sec. I swear, it won't be long. xD

MMk , so I apologize for not updating and stuff lately;
I swear I wasn't being lazy- it's because I've been drawing a lot more on paper lately, and I can't find my camera because my stupid brother lost BOTH of them. And my scanner doesn't bleepin work. ;___; My apologies.

I made my friend a cake for her bday out of clay. Awman, I wish I remembered to take a pic to show you guys-it was my best cake yet! IT was a fruit cake, with strawberries, cream, oranges, and banana; and it had chocolate sprinkles all over it. To add the finishing touches, there was a pink candle right smack in the middle of it. <3 -droool-
Jeez , I wish I had a cake like that for my birthday. :9

Tomorrow I was supposed to go shopping with my mom, but then we couldn't because my dad wanted my mom to watch the laundromat. (For those of you who don't know, my parents own a laundromat. Yes, we know we follow the korean stereotype (rofl) ). I swear, I barely spent money on any good clothes this summer. ;___; Just Urban Planet and shit. WTF I WANTED TO GO TO BEBE AND ARITZIA. T___T

School's starting in 2 weeks. After two weeks, you guys'll see less of me then ever before! I'm going into Grade 9. (: Final year in junior high (EW, SATs). I went to buy some supplies the other day, and I cannot find a cute pencil case. D: I am left with one that looks really manly and un-cute -SIGH- . (-cough- Birthday in 1month)

...-cough- Okay, I lied, that WAS long. Now, back to topic.
My new project that I'm going to work on is an animation/slideshow.
It's an animation/slideshow because it will look very choppy, but the pictures will have a storyline -shot-. ;___; Ehehe, the song I will use is a secret for now. Hopefully I'll finish before the end of summer. <3 Cross your fingers !

is it just me, or is Gaia giving me hack/virus links ?
I think I'm infected anyways .. lol.

OH OH AND GUESS WHAT? :'D
OVER THE SUMMER... I HAVE LOST....
2 LBS. HOORAY ! o uo; -epicfailz- OTL.

the only good thing about being heartbroken is that you'll have inspiration to draw almost anything.

Quick journal to let you know I'm alive. Not dead.